Beginning

[Scream] There is too much in my head, if I dont write it and let it go, am gonna burst with all of it one of these days! So here goes, the very beginning of it all.
The second series of tests for the semester was over and assignments were submitted and nothing much remained to be done for that evening, or for that weekend or for that next whole week of holidays. I decided to go to the library and borrow a bunch of books to read up than feel hollow and pathetic and dwell in self pity all over again.
All my friends, yeah most of them except the trekking ones, had boyfriends, which in turn meant a social life in college! The trekking ones just trekked up vague routes in groups, got to nowhere, smoked, saw the angels and demons dancing by, and returned in good time. Rima, Tanu and me went along with them that one time, saw the ghosts and returned to never go again. I didn't even think it was worth it if I was going to be the most lonely girl around. Trekking and smoking never made me go all 'whee whee...'. Rima had been dying to be done with her tests, the assignments never bothered her, and get into her relationship all over again. She was this studious kinds, who took hiatus(right spelling?) from her relationships when the tests were round the corner and promised to be back as soon as they were over. She was wonderful at it. Sometimes her dedication to whatever she did in life was so awesome that I almost envied her, in comparison, I seemed to suck at my academics and have 0 contribution to any relationship! So that evening Rima was getting all dressed to go on a back-after-break date. Tanu was amazingly accomodating, she accomodated academics, relationships, trekking, politics, part-time jobs and friends with smooth time distribution! She was doing decently well in all the sectors and the best part about her was she always understood me! That evening she had a campaign meeting for the college elections for next year. So books were all I was left with. As I walked to the library, I passed a lonely looking guy, sitting along the parapet and working out something on some paper. For a moment I wished I was like, like Tanu, who could speak to just about anybody, with an confidence that she will be heard and responded to. I could have then spoken to this lonely guy, or maybe I still wouldn't, didn't I see him busying himself? Did I want a boyfriend this evening? No, I told myself, I wanted no company, I need no company and its absolutely fine to sit alone in your room and wait for a call from home.
So thats how it was until, Tan, I didn't know his name then off course, came up from behind and said 'Hi!'. I swung around in surprise, thinking it might be that lonely guy, but it turned out to be that pimply guy who was always answering in statistics-II class. Long back, when I was dreaming in class, I thought this pimply guy would be one of those foolhardy types, capable of jumping into the pool at the deep end without knowing anything of swimming!
'You doing statistic-II this sem aren't you?'
'Yeah, .. yeah I've seen u too!'
'So, how was the paper today?'
[Arrgh! I hate discussing the paper after the test, I'd much rather die not knowing what killed me!] I thought, why can't this pimply guy go hang himself somewhere, than by my neck... I almost laughed imagining the last bit, this must have made me smile, 'cause he said...
'Did damn well, eh?'
'No, I mean, don't feel like discussing paper now,... I hate knowing where I went wrong'
'Oh, but I was hoping at least one person would tell me the answer to this question is 1, I've asked many others, but mostly people haven't answered that one..........................'
[I had stuck my index fingers into my ears at some point during this, he continued despite that! Weirdo...]
'Anyways, you going to canteen?'
How did I manage to hear that bit alone? and before I thought or realised what was happening, I was speaking, 'Yeah, I mean no, I was going to the library, but I'll come along with you to canteen if you dont discuss paper anymore!'
My silly ears went red before I even completed that foolish stunt, how on earth did I calculate that he wanted me to come along?, how on earth can I show off my desperation like this?, how on earth can I embarass him and myself this well?, and most importantly, damn my ears!
'Ok cool, but if I meet anyone from stats class am going to ask about this question, ok?'
'[ok u moron, u and your silly stats questions] ok whatever...' I had recovered from my deep red ears, finally! As we dragged along to canteen, we introduced ourselves and I came to know him a little more than merely the foolhardy, pimply, answering guy from stats class to Tan. Apparently he thought my name was Rima, I pointed out the right name and well, that's almost the beginning to Gina and Tan!